Terry, My best Friend
The most part of releasing yourself of the whole psychotic love issue is to meet someone real. Someone who is not going to judge you. Someone you can find that fits proper in your life. Now this is intesting.
MY PETER PAN ME SYNDROME THAT I LOVE AFTER THE MONEY FOCUS MAN 🙂
Two years after leaving my ex I met a great man. Toy man. Off Roading, camping, you name it. Appeared to not care about money… in the “money money grab way…” BUT… he liked money and I believe that when I left him with a plan to see if money wasn’t the issue ( I had quite a bit at the time) , even if I love his Peter Pan attitude, he left me when I lost my money for his rich ex-girfriend…. life was a perfect of me finding my true Peter Pan…. I thought… but he wasn’t my true Peter Pan. Peter Pan doesn’t care about money that way…. and let me say… that way. It’s not a true Peter Pan. Peter Pan doesn’t care if you have money.
To make things clear. I did marry my Knight in Shining Armour. He made things right for my children with him… but Not ever again my “Prince in Shining Armour”… Joke… Pewk… Doesn’t exist. I will not elaborate… (but as said…did birth 3 perfect children for him… LOL) Birth vessel commitment done… move on…
So to my two year man… he was my best friend… was not my Peter Pan… he was “Peter Peter Pumpkin Eater, Had a Girlfriend Couldn’t Keep Her, Kept her in Pumpkin Shell and There He Did Not Keep Her Well”. Still best friend, but it was a crazy jealousy issue too. Still care for him, always a best friend… but that psychotic love ended… and with him, my psychotic love ended and then I looked for my true Peter Pan.
Two years ago I found my perfect fit… I thought. And was at the time. He just wanted to be with me. He would send me text messages that reminded me of when I was a kid when I had a guy friend. It wasn’t sexual (well… not out of choice… not to be shared here). It was just like “wanna play butter cup?” I loved his texts asking me to come over…
I am an adult of 50 something and that was awesome. I’m like a Peter Pan female version. Truth be known, my TBear was the first time I felt comfortable in my “adulting NOT” life. I know I have responsibilities to my children, and to my retirement funds not to have my children have to deal with that, and all the insurance that goes along with this. I pay into it. But TBear was awesome. I didn’t have to feel all that. We just hung out. It was awesome…. and he reminded me of a memory… of…
I remember when… Best friend like the one across the street or two doors down that asked to come and play when you were 7 years old. Made me forget I had to worry about anything. Okay, that 7 year old best friend was the same friend that put me under the bus when he found a Playboy magazine and asked me to look at it with him. Yes, we were 7 and I don’t know where he found it, but his mother found us!! And he said I found the magazine… I took the hit…
But.. back to my story of TBear. I lost him. He kept telling me he was dying and I laughed and told him to stop saying that. I taught him to dance, took him out to dinner (he was reclusive), he met my parents, my children, I met his daughters. He was my best Peter Pan ever. Never wanted to grow up, but life made him. I guess more of the movie that Peter Pan grew up in “Hook”.
I relate to it. He had 3 daughters. I have 2 boys and a daughter.
And both of us were miffed by parenthood and adulting, although we did it. Not perfectly, but we tried our best.
TBear made my life real, in the fact that I realized that all parents question everything we do to our children, but then live this world, in a divorce scenario, that Disney is not real, so we go back to our Peter Pan world. I’m so okay with that.
In Hook he did it…. God bless Robin Williams…. that movie is all about adults getting back to Peter Pan. Love it…
I like my freedom to do what I want when I want. I did my part of being a mother and taking care of all that and this. But my children are self-sufficient now. They can live with me, I am okay with that, but MY life is now mine.
And so I met a new Peter Pan… and he is just awesomely great company. And he was with lost boys the whole time! Who knew that Peter Pan actually exists without the Hook version. Just one thing… now that I found my exactly right Peter Pan… honest… run away… come back… free… when he shows up he does… doesnt’… K cool 🙂
I’ll spend time with you when you want… I found him… the REAL Peter Pan
So, I like my Peter Pan. 🙂
No Psychotic Love in this friendship… just understanding… and simple honesty and that simplicity could actually work in a relationship… but seriously?… the word “relationship” is too scary… friendship is nicer… and ever better …. Peter Panners…. no commitment…. but always friendship… love this this.
Hugs R… This is dedicated to you… and Tbear…. simple best across the street friends, like it used to be… 😉
Cricket…. my TBear called me that…No else knows this… but I think R will find out.
It’s about honesty, freedom, friendship, and simplicity and never FORGET… FUN!!! 🙂
.. Peter Pan.